Fear Will Cripple You....If You Let It!

I have been having a problem recently with fear. I talked to my mom about it and she was helpful but the fear keeps creeping up on me...so characteristic of fear, huh? So I decided to do a dump post to divulge all of my fears to my loyal readers. Most of this may seem stupid but hey...fear has no respect, so here goes.

1. Guns and being shot by a bullet.
2. Fire and being burned alive.
3. All Bugs
4. Being in a car accident.
5. Death and dead people.
6. Ghosts and the fact that they do exist.
7. Staying at home alone during the night.
8. Being raped.
9. Being pulled over by the police.
10. Brain Aneurysms.
11. Life without my husband.
12. Needles
13. Infertility...

And recently my infertility status has made me more fearful than ever. Here are my random infertility fears. I fear....

1. That big azz needle that ironically will be going into that big azz of mine.
2. That the Clomid didn't work.
3. That the Clomid worked too well.
4. That Babe's sperm count will be too low post wash.
5. That I will have way too many mature follicles.
6. That they will cancel the cycle right there while I am on the table.
7. That the procedure won't work.
8. That I will get a BFN at the end of my tww.
9. That I will get "the call" at work telling me the procedure didn't take.
10. That Babe will be disappointed.
11. That I will never be a mother.

But despite all of these fears, I know I have to believe and stay hopeful. The reality is that this fear consumes me, it cripples me beyond recognition. I am afraid of all the things that can go wrong to the point where I have convinced myself that they will go wrong. Fear will cripple you...if you let it. So, all I can do is not succomb to this fear. I know that God is faithful and as my mom told me last night...

"The only thing we have to fear, is fear itself".

And with that, I am going to look fear in the face, throw away my crutches, and tell fear to kiss my big ol' azz!