Turkey and TTC

Babe and I had a wonderful Thanksgiving. All of our family was there and we ate until we couldn't eat anymore. And because I am a lover of all things food...I will give you a complete menu listing. Our Thanksgiving meal consisted of

• Fried Turkey
• Honey Dijon Baked Spiral Ham
• Baked Macaroni and Cheese
• Collard Greens
• Dressing and Gibblet Gravy
• Candied Yams
• Corn Pudding
• Cranberry Relish
• Cranberry Sauce
• Fresh Baked Yeast Rolls
• Deviled Eggs
• Million Dollar Pie
• Sweet Potato Pie
• Peach Dump Cake

Ummm....Yeah so we pigged out! Everything was delicious and I was exausted. Of course we made our rounds to Babe's side of the family. While there of course the topic of conversation was when Babe and I were going to have children. No one knows that we have been trying hard without any success. Unfortunately, this time only I was cornered with the question so Babe didn't have to face the embarrassment. I began to feel the pressure when C, T, and V were sitting at the table with me and they were talking about their pregnancies...Yes all of them have more than one child!

I was the only one at the table with nothing to add. I just sat and looked while they talked about morning sickness and other pregnancy symptoms. I texted Babe and told him I was getting tired so he came in and rescued me. When we got in the car I told him about what happened and he said he was sorry I had to listen to that. He is so sweet! At home I told him that mom and dad blessed some oil for us b/c they know we are having trouble in that department. He ended the conversation by saying that it would happen soon for us and that God won't let us down. I believe that...I have to.

Bloodwork and Ultrasound - Updates!

I spent the majority of my morning going back and forth with the RE's office. I was surprised when the NP told me that I didn't need to come in to see them until CD13 for the U/S and Babe's S/A. I am getting the B/W done through Quest earlier that morning. Babe and I will take the day off and get things done and then we will probably go to PA BBQ and relax the rest of the day. It should be a good day!

So mentally I am feeling okay. I think the wait is going to kill me but it isn't nearly as bad as the TWW. I know the 8th will be here before we know it. The good news is that they will probably be able to tell me how long it will be before I O so I can BD stress free. No OPK's this month! WOO HOO! I am actually pretty excited to find out how many eggs I produce and what sizes they are. Boy the things that amuse me these days.

Well my friends that it it for now...I don't know if I will have many updates regarding our babymaking adventures at least until we are approaching our appointment. I wonder how long it will be before we get our results back?

CD1....AGAIN

So AF found me....AGAIN! I pretty much expected it though. I was forced by Babe to take a HPT because we were experiencing some "symptoms" of pregnancy. I took the test on yesterday morning and of course...BFN. So we spent the day sulking over our disappointing news and decided to move on to "Plan B" as Babe fondly calls it.

AF arrived today at around 1:30(ish) accompanied by all the bells and whistles. Cramps, irritability, and chocolate cravings. I called the RE's office to schedule my CD3 bloodwork and ultrasound. Unfortunately, they never called me back. I am concerned because my CD3 falls on Turkey Day and I certainly don't want to be getting probed when I should be glazing the ham. But hey...I guess I will do what I have to do.

On to better news....

Babe went to see Dr. Golf today at 3:15. I called at around 4:15 to see how things went. He told me that Dr. Golf agreed that he should get another S/A done and wrote the prescription. Babe doesn't have to take the Clomid until we see what the results are. We couldn't have asked for a better appointment! Hopefully I can get Babe scheduled for the S/A at the same time I go for my appt. We are so excited. We are on our way to "Plan B"!

Life is like a box of....Chocolates?

Yes, sweet delicious chocolates. While I am sure Forest Gump was very profound when he used the analogy of chocolates and life he obviously didn't consider that chocolate is rich, sweet, and delicious...none of which my life is right now. And unfortunately it is true that you never know what you are going to get.

I am 8DPO today and almost certain that I am not going to be getting that Thanksgiving surprise that I have been praying for. And yes, I did say almost certain because no one is ever 100% certain of anything...there is always that itsi bitsi exception. And of course being 8DPO I am really feeling more anxious about what next week may hold for Babe and I. I really want to make his dreams come true by announcing that we beat the odds by becoming pregnant.

So if life really was like a box of chocolates then I wouldn't be so bitter. Bitter because Babe and I have tried everything under the sun in an attempt to become pregnant. We have tried Praying, Charting, Robitussin, Praying more, Acteyl L Carnitene, Preseed, Hip Elevation, Praying harder, Laying for 30 minutes, Fertili Tea, OPK Strips, Pineapple Juice, Grapefruit Juice, Vitamins, Clomid, and yes....Relaxing! We have even resorted...correction, I have resorted to Begging God to bless us.

I guess I will know soon enough if any of that worked. I am tired so I really hope something happens, and soon!

Phantom of the Opera

The Phantom of the Opera was one of the shows that our orchestra performed when I was in high school. We performed all of the musical selections complete with smoke, light effects, and sound effects. It was awesome! But today I am beginning to have another type of phantom episode plaguing me. It is my phantom pregnancy symptoms. I have come to the conclusion that I am in fact 6 DPO today and that was all thanks to my handy dandy ovulation calendar/calculator. It told me that I did in fact O on 11/12 and that places me at 6 days past ovulation. Hip hip hooray!

It's funny that these symptoms are much like my performance in high school, especially the smoke screen. I feel like the symptoms are making it very hard to visualize the reality that I probably am not pregnant this month. They throw up this screen that makes you believe that what you are experiencing is in fact real...even though they are the same symptoms you have experienced before in other non pregnant cycles.

Just for your entertainment pleasure I will report that I have began experiencing cramping, frequent urination, and my breasts are becoming tender. But, aren't these the same symptoms you experience every month? Yes, yes they are except for last month in which I had no symptoms at all whatsoever and still ended up with a negative. So while I will always remember that magical performance from my high school days I wish to lock away the phantom forever and proudly sing to the world that I am finally pregnant...I hope that I am able to have my own performance soon!

5....Errrr 6DPO

Today I am either 5 or 6 DPO...not that it really matters anyway but I just thought I would mention it. I have been feeling very peaceful this cycle. I mean I would still like a positive outcome (read: a positive pregnancy test) but if not then it is on to the next cycle. I guess I just feel like we are getting closer to receiving medical intervention.

I have been reading blogs all weekend and it is so sad how women pay all of this money out of pocket for IUI's and IVF treatments and still come up BFN. I mean women who have done this for 3 or more times. Don't get me wrong...it isn't sad that these women actually pay for treatment but it is sad that it isn't always guarenteed.

I am really struggling with the statistics right now. It seems that the odds are only increased by a small percentage and that is if you are on meds. I do, of course, plan on taking Clomid and trying the trigger shot. I think with the cost of things, Babe and I, will probably try the IUI every three months until it works...hopefully it will work the first time. ::SIGH::

Prayer and Faith

Mom always tells me that sometimes you need something tangible to help you ask God for what you want and keep faith that he will grant that. Sometimes people have prayer cloths, sheets, a cross, a stone, or whatever....



I thought that since I have been feeling out of sorts with religion lately I would do the same so I purchased a prayer box necklace. It opens and you put your prayer inside. It looks like this....



So, I am going to write my prayer request for a happy healthy pregnancy and baby and place it inside the prayer box. That way when I wear it everyday I will remain strong and keep the faith that God will hear my prayer and he will answer them in his time.


On another note: I made an appointment on 11/25 for Babe to go back to Dr. F who I will now refer to as Dr. Golf . We call him that, Babe and I, because he is never there and it is so inconvenient to try to get ahold of him that we figure he has to be at the golf course everyday. Anyway Babe has an appointment with Dr. Golf to talk about the "Clomid Night" which I will never mention in public so you all will have to use your imaginations about what occured. Hopefully, Babe can get some answers about his S/A as well. Only 2 more months until our IUI consultation/scheduling. It is like the movie Groundhog Day during a TWW......