Rounding the Year Mark and Still No Baby

Since my last post I have gone MIA. I have been around, but things got too stressful with the IUI's and BFN's and all that jazz in between. Babe and I decided to take a mental break from it all. We are now trying things the natural way and although there hasn't been much success, it is a little less stressful on our relationship.

Since my last post I have also:

• Had a SIL who gave birth to a baby girl


• Found out that Babe's cousin was pregnant


• Found out that a co worker is pregnant


• Found out that said co worker's SIL is pregnant with #2


• Found out that an internet friend is pregnant with #2


• Endured Mother's Day


• Endured Father's Day


• Endured at least 20 people asking me on 20 different occasions when we were going to have kids.

I am proud to announce that I am still here and stronger than before. But who am I kidding really? Everyone knows that infertility breaks a persons spirit. I am okay with that but it is a hard pill to swallow to see Babe's spirit broken. He is my stregnth and my protector. But recently, he has been clearly expressive about the "unfairness" of it all. I do believe he is finally "getting it". Unfortunately, "getting it" doesn't get us a baby.

Next month will be another year for us. It will probably be the hardest month to see a BFN. We both had a reflection today. How is it possible that there are millions of women out there who don't want children and yet keep having them so easily while millions of women who do want children can't have them at all? Babies being born to teens who are just babies themselves. Babies being born to drug addicts. But, yet women who have good jobs and are financially stable, highly educated, warm loving hearts, suffer with the curse of infertility? Life is royally screwed!

Oh and Have a Happy Fourth of July!