A letter to my dear Aunt Flo:

Curse you Aunt Flo! You are NOT a girls closest friend...in fact you are MY worst enemy! You cause me unbearable stomach pain and every time you arrive I find myself curled in a ball praying to God above that you do not kill me. You cause me to pop countless pills just to find some relief from your wrath. I do NOT love you for that. Oh how I wish you would just pass my house for the next 9 months and prey on some other unsuspecting soul. And although I would love to thank you for bearing me a monthly gift, I will most likely want to exchange that gift for a precious reflection of my husband and myself. You are quite the witch Aunt Flo and your visits are becoming more and more annoying. PLEASE stop bothering me!

Signed,

A Disgruntled Mommy Wanna Be.

CD1...AGAIN!!!

Well the witch finally showed her face. I just wish I had not have wasted that pregnancy test. I already knew that I wasn't pregnant but I just let my emotions get the best of me. I won't let that happen again though. It's funny in a way because I used to be so optimistic about things. Now I just struggle to see the positive in all of this. I do know deep down inside that there is a light at the end of this long dark tunnel.

This was officially our 6th consecutive cycle of ttc since Babe came back from California. Technically we could try for 6 more months but we don't really have to b/c we have already been labled as infertile. We have been through all of the testing and we really have been fortunate to have been able to see a specialist early on in the game. I know I couldn't deal with 6 more months of this. Hopefully I won't have to.

I have been thinking about my blog lately and I think it would be more interesting if I also did video clips of my journey. So I will work on that. Hopefully my journey will be of inspiration to someone else. And of course with every negative thing that occurs there is always something positive to counter balance things. On a positive note the arrival of AF brings a new cycle. A medicated cycle. A cycle of hope. A cycle which I am praying will end in a pregnancy.